Restrained portrays my own relationship with the thread, food, and my body. Many times during my life, I’ve felt restrained by my own clothes, sometimes even suffocated. In this sculpture, I expose intimate feelings, putting into matter my vulnerability and insecurities. I chose to work with this material because of how the weight and stiffness of plaster express how I’ve felt about my body in some periods of my life. I’ve always struggled with emotional eating disorders, and my weight has fluctuated a lot over the years.
Growing up in a family of cookers and food lovers, I learned that food represents love and comfort, and I have fantastic childhood memories in the kitchen, cooking with my parents and grandparents. While working on this piece, my parents were visiting, and I asked my father to help me. We used the same method he’s always used to tie the meat in this piece, and I chose the red color of the twine to represent love and hunger and white plaster to represent my own body.
It was profoundly emotional to work on this project with my father, and It made me travel back in time and feel all the love he’s consistently demonstrated for me (especially in the kitchen).